Nowadays,

Coffee is not making me active…

Inspiration videos are not really making any impact in my daily life…

Sharing with friends are not really making any differences…

Trips are not changing the way I want live from how I am living….

Positive thinking is not helping me to be positive when I feel heavy…

Reading is not making me perfect the way I think…

Day by day losing the hope,

losing my energy,

losing my confidence,

losing everything…

I am always giving the positive energy to my friends when they feel low but I cannot produce any results with the same positive energy in my life.

Hard work leads to success!

I know that,

I am ready to do that,

But I am not able to do that…

I am not able to convert my thoughts in to action but I am not able to find what really is blocking…

I feel like that I am drowning in my negative thoughts…

And also, I am not able to convey this to my friends, I have many closed people still am not able to convey to them…

There is nothing to make me interest to work really from the heart…

My day is not starting with the positive note and not ending with a happy one…

Everyday same thinking that I should be doing the things but not starting…

Literally I am wasting the 9 golden hours in office…

Going breaks are not really disturbing but sitting in the cabin hurts….

My current situation is like,

Really shortage of money for daily life,

Not using the time wisely,

Not concentrating in a single technology,

Not looking for the health really…

Living the same life daily,

Same place,

Same routine,

Same breaks,

Same food even…

I feel that all these things should not trouble my friends because they are also already going through the rough times in their respective life.

I don’t need any motivation speech,

Any sympathy on me,

Any advice,

Anything related to this,

I just need to produce the results.

I am not even able to show my angry because when I show the opponent people are feeling too much, so I should think twice before I say any words…

If you notice, in this I used more not, so my mind is fully in to the negative thoughts…

I think am going out of control and losing my mind also…

But….

I wrote this because I don’t want to keep all these shit in my mind to make me feel bad and always feeling low…

Definitely I will make all these negative things in to positive and produce some better results…

I too know that I don’t have much time but what really matters is that I need use the time to make it better living….

Don’t worry and be happy…!

Lovingly,

Purush